Hiisifits Commentary

Sometimes it is best to not know. While writing Hiisi fits I first employed concepts of psychology to explain the insidiousness of a sociopath with multiple personality disorders. Each time I would re-read what I had written it fell sorely short on what I learned of Mika’s character. On the fourth attempt I chose to relate the character through myth and only then, according to Anna, did it begin to portray the true character. I dared not get any closer to the complexes that operated in Mika for to truly Know the mental functions of the individual one must be able to think like them and to think like them, even for a short time, one is at risk of falling into the depths of madness. One must lose love and compassion as well as reason to enter that space. First of all it is an impossible task for a normal functional person. Normal, because that is difficult to define, I mean fully functioning emotion, sensation, thought and intuition because we cannot step into that space where there is an absence of these characteristics. Secondly, if it were possible to enter the madness of such a mind, one would be forever altered to some degree and perhaps there would be no return. Kaleo advises, “Do not seek to know, seek only for intellectual knowledge and listen to intuition. We must be satisfied with this understanding.”

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My Childhood You Ask?

My Childhood, You Ask?

A new garden is being prepared for planting. It is tilled repeatedly and fertilized to provide every opportunity to produce the finest of fruits. In the spring time the garden is planted with exotic and nutritious fruit seeds to delight the most sensitive of taste buds. Gloriously, it grew into a perfect combination of mysticism, wonder and miracles albeit with a few weeds. The absent-minded, unawakened souls came to admire the garden and sometimes simply to thieve the fruits. They brought with them many weed seeds on their boots, clothing and gloves, shedding them as they wandered through the garden. Soon it became difficult to maintain for the weeds grew big and strong choking the beautiful plants. Less and less production was realized until such a time it was difficult to find the fruits at all. Over time it was seen as a problem plot. Perhaps it should be destroyed? And yet, as time went by no one cared enough to do even acknowledge the garden for it looked much the same as all the others. The garden was passed down through the generations and after three generations it became so very sick it developed horrible diseases and then died.
Why do therapists inevitably ask about your childhood experience?
The answer is that our psyche was developed in our formative years of rapid brain development. What we experienced and learned effects our perceptions about current life events from the smallest to the largest occurrences. Thus we interpret life events according to these perceptions and, as we tell ourselves the story in relation to the events, we activate neuronal chemicals leading to emotion which in turn determines our response to any given situation.
The fact is many experienced a less-than-idyllic childhood and for some children it was a house of horrors. The unresolved stress will eventually lead to physical illness. There is no separation of mind, body and soul. Consider for a moment a time when you felt very uncomfortable something triggered a response that left your tummy rumbling. That is the wisdom of your body speaking. The brain receives messages and talks to the gut. The gut neurons process and magnify the message and a dialogue ensues between gut and brain. To expound on these body messages, all the data is also in communication with the heart neurons, the nervous system and thus, the whole body is involved in the processing of the information. Unresolved stressors will eventually lead to physical illness, if not sooner, then later.
Ask yourself a few basic questions such as mentioned below:
Was your mother stressed? If yes, were you compelled to withhold you own stress or concerns in order to protect her from additional stress?
Did your father rage? If yes, did you suppress your own anger and other emotions in response?
Were either or both my parents emotionally distant, non-supportive, non-validating, non-nurturing?
Do I feel I have a hole in soul of unmet needs?
Now you know why therapists ask the question about your childhood experience. It is the foundation from which to begin healing. It is the garden of the soul.

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